How can I detach myself from him?

How can I detach myself from him?

I know he always tries to be in my sight at his work. I know he always steals glances at me. He takes every chance to come near me. I know he wanted me to “accidentally” bump into him when he stood right behind me.

I sense he wants me to look at him. When he catches me looking at him, he seems excited.

He takes every chance to see me. So do I.

We can’t help smiling at each other when we meet. We are drawn to each other. There is obvious chemistry between us, but there’s no way we can make moves because every aspect of our lives is against us, and our chemistry is so inappropriate.

It could be our last chance to see each other next week, after an half year of seeing each other, because we need a legit reason to see each other, as our attraction cannot be noticed by anyone.

After all, we don’t know each other well. We’re just drawn to each other. He may be hoping to get lucky with me and doesn’t want anything more than that. And I’m totally fine with that.

It just feels so intoxicating to be wanted by a guy like him. I know he likes me as a person as well. And I also like him that way. His fun loving and free energy is amazing. His emphasis on kindness resonates with me.

Every little word and action I make seem to put smile on him. I don’t know why but he seems to be intrigued by me. I may be different from any women he has met.

He makes me feel special. I don’t want to lose a chance to see him. His life will go on without me and he will be fine. But I don’t think I will be ok. It’s devastating to not being able to see him again.

He said I’ll be the first person to know what work he will be in charge so that I may be able to arrange times to see him.

I want him to continue looking at me, vie for my attention, come unnaturally close to me, and follow me around as he has always done. I want him to reach his hands on me just once so that I can live with the memory.