I was going to end my fucking life tonight.

ななしさん

Dear my small bottle,

Live for your husband.
Live for yourself.
Just keep yourself alive for now, wait a little longer, and you will start feeling a little bit better.
Don't wait anything else.
Just wait until you feel a little bit better.
It could be tomorrow.
It could be weeks from today.
I know it is hard not to be able to know 'when'.
But just wait.
Wait a little longer to get a little bit better.
That's all.

You are depressed, and feeling that you would never go up.
But you know, your body and brain need some rest.
Just hang there, and let yourself rest more.
Once you get enough rest, you will be feeling a bit better.

You love your husband.
If you can feel that love even when you are depressed, your love must be very strong.
And it seems that your husband is very loving as well.

Believe your husband.
Believe your love to your husband.
It must be super hard not to be able to control yourself.
You cannot do what you want to do.
You cannot be what you want to be.
You struggle so much, and yet you cannot be yourself!

But as you said, you have him!
Your loving and giving husband!
And HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH!

Love him back, as much as you can.
Be with him, so that he can see your lovely smile again!
He believes in you!
That is why he is giving.
So believe yourself, as your husband believes.

Please take care of yourself.
Please take care of your husband.

ななしさん

I think your husband is a nice person. Your husband will give you everything. So, I think your wish "Just wait a little longer" will come true.